Dear blog,

I am beat. The words here cannot even express the exhaustion I am feeling at this moment. Both physically and mentally wiped.

I guess I should play a little catch-up with you and tell you where I am at. I am awful at writing my thoughts and feelings, as you well know. So bear with me here.

I have decided to move back to Seattle to be closer to my family and friends. This one point I could not be any happier about. It was almost four years ago that I left Seattle for San Diego. Not saying that I hated it here, it all treated me pretty well. I have grown alot, mentally. Learned quite a bit about myself and human nature. Blah, blah, blah…you do not want to hear any of this, so how about I just move onto the details.

Today I just signed a lease on an apartment. Crazy thing is that it will cost me less than my place here in San Diego and it is more than twice the size with all the amenities and no homeless people sleeping outside my door. Yay team! But I am only planning on holding onto the apartment until I can find a house to buy. I am more than ready for that.

I am fortunate enough to be able to bring my job along with me. This I could not be happier about either. It is a job I actually really enjoy and I do well at. Plus, it takes a huge amount of stress off me having to find a new gig.

As for all my gear/stuff/junk…I am unloading it all. My clothes, DVD’s, and computers will get shipped up to the new place. But everything else is getting sold or given away. I took a long look at everything and decided that it would cost more in both dollars and sanity to move it all then to just unload it and start over with fresh stuff. Last week I hired a great woman who is both organized and highly-motivated. She came through and inventoried everything and is selling it all. YEEHAW! That was a huge weight off my shoulders. Before hiring her I could only picture myself sitting amongst everything the night before I want to leave town and not know what I am going to do. Downside is that the good stuff is already going. For example, my main TV….gone. I have about 2.5 weeks left and I am down to just the small TV from my bedroom. Two TiVo’s and one TV….*sigh*. But this is a good thing. Right? Right?

Jasmine is none too happy about all of this right now. I think it has her stressed as much as me. Not only is there random pieces of crucial furniture all of the sudden missing, but she also got a trip to the vet yesterday for a checkup. She is pretty set in her ways. Not really down for leaving the house. Luckily, the vet hooked me up with some sedatives for her to make the drive up to Seattle easier for me. Now if I could have just gotten her to prescribe me some sedatives…

It was almost 9pm tonite and I realized that I had not eaten yet tonite. I cruised over to Wahoo’s, but they had just closed. So I bopped over to Chili’s for some good old fashioned comfort food in hopes that it would help relieve my stress. It probably would have helped not consuming 3 Diet Cokes while awaiting my Quesadilla. Now I am all hopped up and nowhere to go. I probably should focus that energy on filling a box with clothes. ehhhh….I can’t be bothered right now.

What else is there??? I was on a roll there for a minute, and now it is lost…

Oh yeah…so this past weekend I went up to LA for dinner with Kelley. We had some grubbin italian at The Grove. Must love SoCal….fake snow in December at the mall! After that we cruised over to the Improv and caught Bob Saget doing stand-up. Hil-FUCKING-larious! Dude went for almost 90 minutes non-stop with the funny. And I am not talking Full House funny, I am talking foul-mouthed non-stop making with the funny. Although, he did have a few good Kimmy Gibbler stories. *head scratch* I sure am going to miss those weekend trips to LA.

Well blog, you have been a good ear for me tonite. Thank you. I will try to be a little more regular around these parts.

XOXO,

(the guy whose name is in the address field)

p.s. As I was walking into Chili’s, the following lyrics were playing:

Hey, hey, hey ,hey
Ohhh…

Won’t you come see about me?
I’ll be alone, dancing you know it baby

Tell me your troubles and doubts
Giving me everything inside and out and
Love’s strange so real in the dark
Think of the tender things that we were working on

Slow change may pull us apart
When the light gets into your heart, baby

Don’t You Forget About Me
Don’t Don’t Don’t Don’t
Don’t You Forget About Me

I can’t quite put my finger on it, but it just seemed right…

{editors note: I published this in my journal Set. 16, 2004. With current thoughts going through my head, these resound just as strong today}

So I was going through my head thinking about the things from my everyday life that I miss about living in Seattle. I have compiled a Top 10 list:

10. The first solid rainstorm of fall.
9. Issaquah Salmon Days – two words: Elephant Ears
8. Spuds Fish & Chips (West Seattle, not the bastardizations in Greenlake & Juanita)
7. The view of the Seattle skyline traveling southbound on I-5 just as you cross the Ship Canal bridge.
6. The filet mignon and potato pancakes at Jax.
5. Early morning breakfast at Lowell’s in the Pike Place Market watching the ferries cross Elliot Bay. (BEST punkin muffins anywere)
4. Late night movies with my brothers.
3. Nordies on the first day of the Anniversary Sale. (just not the same outside of Seattle)
2. Dick’s Deluxe with fries and a large Coke. (Gotta say no to the chocolate shakes, they make my tum-tum feel unhappy)
1. My friends Scott & Heidi (and their 6-month old JD). I would (and have) ditch the rest of it all to be able to see them.

Honarable mention: Eggnog Latte’s in November and December from the Nordstrom Coffee Bar. Fuck Starbucks.

Why is it that one day a survey looks fun to do, and the next it feels like hot pokers in the eyes. Today is one of the ‘fun’ days.:

LIVING ARRANGEMENTS: Myself and Princess Mraw Mraw
WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING NOW: The DaVinci Code
FAVORITE GAME: Monopoly
FAVORITE SMELLS: ocean breeze, first rain of the fall, a beautiful woman, obsession for women
FAVORITE MAGAZINE: Business 2.0, PC Magazine
FAVORITE SOUNDS: My office voicemail prompt saying: You have no new messages
WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD: seeing someone dear in pain and not being able to help
WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING: Damn that Ann Curry has a sexy voice!
A PERFECT DAY: really depends on my mood, no good answer right now….check back later
HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE: caller id
FUTURE DAUGHTER’S NAME: Madeline Alicia
FAVORITE FOODS: sushi w/ frosting
CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA: nilla
DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST: define ‘fast’
DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL: only Princess Mraw Mraw after a late-night serving of Tender Vittles
STORMS: Louder the better, when curled up beneath the sheets
WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR: 1975 VW Super Beetle (color: radioactive guacamole)
FAVORITE NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: chai tea
WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN: capricorn – the horny goat
IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED WHAT WOULD IT BE: Technology Advisor to the Rich & Infamous
IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOR: such the possibilities
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE: I hope not, at least not yet.
FAVORITE CHRISTMAS MOVIE: It’s A Wonderful Life
ARE YOU A LEFTY OR A RIGHTY: right
FAVORITE COLOR: evergreen
FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH: Foxy Boxing

I swear to god I have never seen a single episode of this cartoon, but for some forsaken reason I have the theme song stuck in my head:

Who lives in a pineapple under the sea?
Sponge bob square pants
Absorbant and yellow and porous is he
Sponge bob Square pants.
If nautical nonsense be something you wish
Spongebob square pants
Then drop on the deck and flop like a fish
Sponge Bob Square Pants
Spongebob Squarepants Spongebob Squarepants
Spongebob Squarepants Spongebob Squarpants!

Let’s just hope this does not make me gay.